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part two to angel cause i forgot a lot of stuff. sorry guys memory is awful around here
i think that i actually have been moving on...very slowly though. healing isn't as easy as i thought it would be but im stuck between the junction of staying friends or trying to pursue something with you again. i would love to be your boyfriend again. please call i still love you a lot.
given that this is like the second...third..?? break up message in quick succession (rapid fire round onetwothrew GO) im really hoping that this decision isn't permanent and you come back. i miss you. i miss our talks i miss having long conversations that span hours past our bedtime. i wish that we weren't long distance honestly; i would've loved living in your neighborhood. i would've loved knowing you in person rather as just someone through a screen. ldr is beating my ass right now but we could've made it possible. it was only one more year until i graduated.
monday april 6th will forever be a monumental day in my memory cause not only were you able to rekindle the hope for a prosperous loving relationship in a matter of minutes, but it's also been the hardest i've ever cried in a while. almost tops my crashout season of 2025 just allllmost. or on par honestly that was a rough time screw summer 2025 all ym homies hate 2025. i dont think i've actually cried that hard in a day its really insane. i'd let you punch me and make me cry if it meant that you still loved me honestly. its really pathetic but i've only wanted it to be you and no one else. i fell in love with you and i'm still in love with whatever person you grow to become. school was especially hard that day but i found out a little more about myself actually. i've found out that i hate being seen as weak and pitied by anyone (exception being you). i think i just don't want to be understood like at all or something. or at least i'd like to be seen as capable and smart and not. whatever i really am. i hope another april 6 happens and we get back together. i wonder what you tell your friends. only two of my friends know about our break up, and i hope i won't have to tell everyone else because we get back together.
sorry desperations really showing in this one. i still really wanna go to college with you. i also still think about how you said that the cherry crush webtoon and jonny by faye webster were really us coded. i swear you're like a psychic or something how the hell did you predict this two years early. please come back haha