wake up call
awww kian aren't you just the sweetest cutest bundle of joy! 😊😊😊😊😊😊FI|CUK MY LIFE. ntm on my little weird typing quirk i think its really apparent that i dislike typing formally unless its for an assignment or something speaking of school i have ap testing! im so excited to fail ap chem im having my ass handed back to me in that class istg. ap bio >>>>>>>>>>>> ap ch*m ANY DAY. love equilibrium and acid base though top 2 units oat
maybe i just have weird attachment abandonment whatever issues but i cannot. and i mean CANNOOOOOOOOTTTTT go three days without texting this guy its almost insane how reliant ive grown to be. its almost sickening last time i did this wass like freshman year...2024....shivers goodness gracious. it's literally been 3 days this is nothing compared to my 14 days of no contact DURING VALENTINES DAY MIND YOU. MESSAGED ME ON VALENTINES DAY 2024 or somewhere close hey....how we doing.. GTFO. GET OUT OF MY DMS GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTT. yeah safe to say that attempt at distancing and losing feelings was hashtag USELESS. ive just realized like half my blog is me talking about my love life im sorry i crave affection but i shut down very easily i think im just. really pathetic.
gonna send this to him this evening, not really expecting much honestly. i'd love for him to stay in my life but like. i dont know its just tiring undiagnosed but theres definitely something going on in there. kian out
edit 1230am 04/28/26: still haven't sent the mesaage. im so scared actually i dont know anymore. i was thinking about this while studying for classes. i think ill just send it when i finish my last chemistry problem. cheers
edit2 1241am 04/28/26: omfg discord limited my words im just gonna suck it up anddouble messaged this dude idgaf anymore. double message warrior in the flesh. dont get on me for using discord for communication my phone is deteriorating at concerning rates half my screen is UNRESPONSIVE
edit3 1245am 04/28/26: sent
edit4 1248am 08/28/26: OK sent for real will be updating the capriciouslings tomorrow......if i even get a response. funfact the doc i wrote this on is called stop lying to my face