i'll love whatever kicks me the hardest in the mouth
hello all! title from nina + field of cops by cameron winter btw......it is almost one month since we broke up the path to healing is not at all linear but i definitely feel a bit better. he still lingers on my mind quite a lot and its embarrassing to admit that i still have a smidge of hope that he'll come back. uughhhhhh move the hell on bro i think spending unhealthy amounts of time on pinterest isnt doing any good for me so like. lets log off. im done chasing
ok MOOOOOOOOOVVVING on...after the dumpster fire that april was i think I THINK. iiiiii think that may is slightly better no may is treating me like ten times better than april holy shit. maybe life isnt over maybe i can still attend my dream college YES!! my grades are honestly trash though its kind of sad im getting my ass handed back to me by ap chem and ap lang ughhh let me pass ap lang with an a dude please pleaaaseeee im trying rn i swear ill pick up a book over the summer new blog idea kian rates books he's reading ive actually been more accustomed to using any pronouns for me now even though i dont align strictly to the gender binary and i've never felt any better. k anyways
bless may honestly....may has always been like not my favorite month because almost everyone i've had bad history with were born in may omfg how childish can you GET STOP STOP STOOOPPPPPP its really stupid but honestly i dont hate any months. hate is a strong strong word but i have a strong distaste towards summer honestly. BUT NOT ANYMORE BLESS. im going to be free with NOT ONE/.......BUT TWO!!!!!!!!! TWO VOLUNTEER OPPORTUNITIES!!!!!! OH BLESS UP!!!!!!!! i've never been the best at job interviews i'll be so transparent but we pulled through THANK YOU GUYS!!!!!! im really excited to slave away at these opportunities but hey lets get out of that comfort zone. lets meet new people. lets live life a little better, yes? its gonna be hot as hell though but one of the jobs entails swimming so idgaf
im so so so excited for friday may 15th...ap season over i can indulge in my interests and start sleeping earlier AND start drawing again.....i can finally restart my stupid art passion project that's been with me since 6th grade im actually so excited. i already have a list of things to do once ap testing is over and at the top is play ZATO AND JCC LETS GO!!!!!!!!! I LOVE BEIING AN UNEMPLOYED LOSER!!!!!! oh i also botched my bangs but we carry on hair grows back either way why should i be so worried over it
hopefully summer 2026 is better than last year. im really hoping. i don't think i've been this excited for summer save for the fact its summer break. i love my friends. stay weird capriciouslings