acknowledgement
speaking of bagel i actually had a bagel today for breakfast. we store our bagels in the freezer so I had to let it thaw a little and then i popped it into the toaster oven. It was warm and soft so the ice melted and it was a little soggy just a tiny bit but a bagel is a bagel i have no room to complain. I had it with cream cheese and apples+cinnamon and i think this was the most substantial breakfast I have eaten in a while. I will be eating a caesar salad wrap for dinner.
before i had this domain I actually blogged a little bit on a different domain on the same site. I was planning on returning but i actually forgot the edit code so whatever. we think about you daily brusied.bearblog.dev. it was called avoidance archives which is funny as hell honestly. I always had a gut feeling that I was somewhat of an avoidant person by nature but in my previous relationship I shoved those feelings down. you would not believe the person I was in a relationship happened to also be the most avoidant person ever. or maybe you could i dont know. I hate confrontation and im scared shitless half the time so maybe this is my way of avoiding unnecessary stress in my already stressful life or something.
i have yet to respond to the guy's message actually. it's been 2 hours and im so. so scared. god please help me. may will be great. I am hanging out with my friends tomorrow and we're decorating a cake in the park. I will make it out of here.